Tuesday, August 12, 2014

So Many Changes

There's been so many changes these past few months.
I'm still wondering where I belong these days, 
wondering if I'm suppose to laugh, cry, shout
or have a good time. I'm slowly getting
my feet on solid ground. I stay pretty
close to home, it seems to be
my comfort zone, learning to be a
stronger me, and becoming
"very" OCD.

 I've stayed as busy
as I possibly
can trying to ward off the feeling
of loss, the empty feeling the house
now has, the quiet. Sometimes the
quiet is so over whelming.
 I've made a few changes trying
to put a lighter touch here and there.
 Letting my faith carry me through the
long and lonely evenings.
 I've weathered a few storms and I 
feel as though I'm coming out
on top. The Lord will not
bring you to it, without bringing
you through it.
 Each evening I enjoy the beautiful ferns
as they blow slightly in the wind, reveling 
in the fact life goes on. 
 I thank God every day for this small pup
Miss Scooter, she is truly my saving
grace through out the day. Her many 
antics and cute face always puts
a smile on my face. She too, is
struggling, constantly at my side I feel
as though she thinks I'll leave
her as well. 
The last 6 months have been some of
the most difficult ones I've spent in my
life. Staying busy with the yard
work, shop and the pups helps.
Mr. P it's hard to believe you left us
6 months ago today to go to your
Heavenly home, I know you're
healthy and happy now.
If they have equipment in
Heaven I know you're sitting in
the sit enjoying every bit of it.
I know you get to fly with
Angels watching over us,
those are the thoughts
that give me peace.
I love and miss you a
 bushel and a peck and a 
hug around the neck.
Fondly ~Lynne ~


Mary@mydogsmygardenandmary said...

Oh Lynn, I know it's so hard to lose a loved one and pick up the pieces and go on. He would not want you to sit around, but to get on with your life. He is not in pain now and is loving looking down from heaven. Your little dog is so cute and they seem to know when you need them. Hang in there, things will get better.
God bless you and have a great week.

Pat said...

You and Miss Scooter have done an amaing job of coping with your loss.
I'm sure "Mr. P" is watching over you both. . .each and everyday!!!
Prayers continue for you daily, dear friend.
I am so~o~o lovin' the lighter hues in your vignette photos!!!
Focus on what lies ahead.

Alycia Nichols said...

My heart goes out to you, Lynne. Change in and of itself can be such a bummer to wrestle with, and when it's the kind of change you were forced to endure 6 months ago (and for all the time Mr. P was ill, for that matter), it's just that much harder. I am glad you are able to find some solace and peace in and around your home as well as with your faithful 4-legged companion.

I have no wise words to offer...that's like squeezing blood out of a turnip. Instead, I offer you wishes of peace and gratitude in knowing that you had so many wonderful years and that you will forever have the wonderful memories. Take care, sister.

Rhonda said...

Hugs and prayers as you continue on your journey. May happy memories of Mr. P comfort your heart!

Wsprsweetly Of Cottages said...

Just reading what you have written bring it all back as though it were yesterday. It sweeps over me and I know where you are, Lynne. It is the worst pain I have ever gone through in my life. The pain of loss is still upon me..and I want them back at all costs...and putting one foot in front of the other will be the hardest probably be the hardest thing you will ever do. My heart goes out to you. We are all out here for you as best we can be. Hang on to that...

Sue said...

I'm wishing the best for you as you continue going forward day by day, Lynne. I'm so glad that you have the dogs because I know how much a pet/pets can bring comfort and companionship during times of despair and loneliness.
Things will get better for you. The storm clouds will part and the bright sun will shine through more and more.

Happy To Be/ Gl♥ria said...

I love you my dear friend..I know about the sea of being lonely and the night time are the worse..PLEASE know I'm here for you honey..you helped me through many a sad time in my life..wished I was closer to give you a hug and have a morning cup with you..from my mountain to yours..gloria

Marty@A Stroll Thru Life said...

YOu have my hugs and prayers as you continue the journey.

Glenda/MidSouth said...

Sending a (((hug))).
Enjoy your weekend.

Ceekay-THINKIN of HOME said...

I cannot believe it is six months already. We just lost a dear friend within 6 months of diagnosis. I think of his wife almost every day. She is just lost. Glad you are keeping busy and you have your precious puppy companion.