a year ago. Saying goodbye to my best friend, my hubby, my confident and so much more. There's been many trials and tribulations this past year.
Many days I wondered if I could make it through to another day. I would reflect back upon all the fun times we had. Dancing on the weekends, and you said you never danced before, we could clear the floor with all of our moves. Flying to California to see Grandma before we lost her. A couple of trips to Tennessee oh the fun we had in that plane. The many trips to Nebraska to be with your family. Moving to the Lake of the Ozarks due to stress and ugliness around us in our home town. Skiing on the lake everyday and enjoying life to the fullest. We survived all of those rough times. We moved back only for you to decide to make a living driving a truck over the road, to be gone 2 and 3 weeks at a time. Trials and tribulations continued with each thing thrown at us we made it through together.
My faith has been tested and I've endured, for with out it I couldn't have made it through this past year. Heaven was singing loudly the day I lost you. The trumpets playing had to be loud and long. Oh how I miss you and that little boy grin. I'm doing OK getting stronger each day. Those in the outside world came and asked for personal "family" items, I gave them to them still playing nice in the sandbox, to be told I'm not blood. The cruel treatment I felt was insurmountable, I felt as though I lost you all over again. At the end of the day they are minuscule materialistic "things", they can have those things what they can't take or have are my memories and all the fun we had over the last 35 years. I know you said it wouldn't happen, I told you it would, I think you would feel ashamed of some of the things that have occurred. Again, it's OK, I lived that for 35 years, now I'm free of that ugliness, I have my love and memories to keep me warm at night.
I'm slowly climbing to the top from the bottom of the rabbit hole. So today I celebrate you and the gift I had in having you as my husband for the past 35 years. I hope you're dancing and singing in Heaven with all of our loved ones that have gone on before us. I miss and love you like crazy. As we said to each other every evening,
I love you a bushel and a peck and a hug around the neck.
~ Lynne ~